The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2011 annual report for this blog.
Here’s an excerpt:
A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 3,000 times in 2011. If it were a cable car, it would take about 50 trips to carry that many people.
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It’s that time of year again.
That time when we get to break out a new calendar (I went with flowers this year), take a deep breath and be glad the last year of hell is over. Or at least my last year was hell. If you had a good 2011, good for you!
I wonder when it became a time to make resolutions to change? I could probably find the answer or something like that on wikipedia, but I’d rather wonder and see if one of you smart people know the answer. I haven’t decided if I’m making any resolutions. There are some bad habits I’m changing like not flossing every night, but is that a resolution? Besides, I started it before the new year. I don’t like the weight new years resolutions have. They’re just begging to be failed. I’ll just make some minor adjustments along the way instead.
My new years eve was as exciting as any. I sat at home, actually fell asleep until 11:30. Popped the bubbly (Barefoot Bubbly Moscato-it was good). Turned on Food Network, hopped online, and would have completely missed midnight if it hadn’t been for twitter and the escalation of fireworks. My poor cat was terrified and wouldn’t come out to celebrate with me.
My sleep habits lately are unexplainable. Normally I’d be asleep or falling asleep by now, but I’m trying to stay up and get some laundry done. I fall asleep late, wake up late, stay up for three of four hours, then find it impossible to not fall asleep for a few more hours. So I’m napping between 7-11pm, if not longer. I know that’s why I can’t sleep at night but I have no idea why I get SO exhausted in the evening.I literally can’t help falling asleep. Maybe its just left overs from the chest infection I had.
Oh, of course. Christmas was nice. I got some Miami Dolphins stuff along with Magic and Red Sox shirts. I also got a couple of movies, a dance game for my Wii, Coach and Smokey Bones gift cards, and a sterling silver necklace from Tiffiny. Zach was good to me this year! He got a Kinect, some video games, clothes, the usual gift cards and whatnot. It was a pretty chill day.
Hope you all had a great Christmas and are excited about your new calendar!
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Or something at least. It won’t settle down enough for me to fall asleep. I’ve tried every trick that I know, but nothing helps. So I figured I might as well change what I’m doing because that would definitely make me fall asleep. Not working so far.
The Christmas tree tried to take a nosedive again. Now its leaning backwards, and it doesn’t look so bad. I’ve never had such a fit with a tree. I never baked cookies, never got around to my Christmas cards (why can’t they make New Years cards?). I’m just chalking this holiday season up to the blahs. There’s too many of them. Plus I ended up with bronchitis and spent a deal of time huddled in bed. I’m so tired most of the time lately. I’ve got to do something about it.
I am looking forward to Christmas. I’ll be getting some surprises this year. Can’t remember the last time that happened. There happens to be a Tiffany blue box under the tree for me, too! What girl wouldn’t get excited about that? I’m going to try to post some pictures later, or on Christmas eve, but if I don’t, I wish you all a Merry Christmas!
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I can’t say that I’ve found myself in the Christmas spirit this year. The weather sucks. I haven’t been feeling well. Things just aren’t going smoothly. I haven’t done cards, I haven’t baked any cookies. I just can’t seem to get things done.
I was out on Friday night and got a text from Zach that we had a major problem–the Christmas tree had fallen down. Luckily only four ornaments broke, but what a pain. Two of Zach’s friends came over to help fix it yesterday. Its currently tied to two cinder blocks to keep it from falling. Its a redneck Christmas y’all! At least the blocks are hidden behind the tree. I had to redecorate it after that. I got no pleasure out of it. It felt like a chore. Well, I guess it really was. You don’t expect your tree to fall and need to be redecorated.
My shopping is pretty much done and wrapped. I’d still like to go to the mall just because. Maybe the mall all decorated for Christmas would cheer me up. Zach’s already been half a dozen times on his own. I was planning on going tomorrow but now I need to try to go to the doctor. I’ve had chest congestion for about a month now and its just not going away, its getting worse. If I had insurance I would have gone to the emergency room today because I could barely breathe.
I hope things are going better for you guys. I hope you’re enjoying your holiday season.
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Well, I’ve gotten all of the decorating done. Now it comes down to finishing shopping, wrapping presents, and doing my Christmas cards. If only I felt like doing something. Sunday’s are always a blah day, I guess.
Really though, they’re all blah days. I know its because deep down I miss my mom so bad. The holidays without her are hard. She wasn’t home for them last year either because she was in the rehab center. I should have brought her home for Christmas. I just should have insisted on it. I didn’t know it was going to be the last one we’d have with her alive.
On top of emotional stress, I haven’t been feeling that well physically either. I’ve been so congested I’ve become a mouth breather. That makes sleep even more difficult. Plus I’ve been waking up at some point so wheezy and having trouble breathing that I have to use my inhaler.
Zach only has a two more weeks of classes. It seems like he just started the semester. He’s already registered for classes for spring. His financial aid finally came in, and they gave it to him in the form of a debit card, so he’s been doing his Christmas shopping. He went out on Black Friday. I never do that-crowds are too big for my liking.
Hope your holiday seasons are off to a good start.
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Well, so much for posting every day.
We finally placed my mom at the cemetery this past Friday. It was just Zach and me. My dad didn’t go, not that I’m that surprised. It was a bittersweet moment. I didn’t get emotional like I thought I would. There is a very empty spot on my dresser now, though.
I can’t say I’m prepared for Thanskgiving. Going to the grocery tomorrow to pick up what’s needed. Since its just Zach and me, we’re going to do turkey breast instead of a whole turkey. Neither of us is a fan of dark meat. We’re going to do the usual dressing, mashed potatoes, green beans. I think I have Thanksgiving phobia because whenever I think about it I get panicky. I’m worried that everything will go wrong, it will be a mess, my timing will be off. Its not until everything is done that I calm down. I’ve done this successfully for five years, you’d think I’d stop worrying. And its not like I have a big crowd to please either.
I’ve been really lazy lately. I’m not motivate to do anything. I just sit in bed and watch tv or troll the internet. Maybe its the upcoming holidays that have me down, I don’t know. Hopefully my butt will get in gear soon. I still have to finish my shopping and of course there’s decorating. Zach is firmly against me starting that before Thanksgiving. He’s such a party pooper.
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I totally meant to join in national blog posting month, but the 1st rolled around and I had nothing to say, no picture to post, etc. So sue me. Only, not.
I’m sitting here with my Christmas spice candle burning, listening to A Very She & Him Christmas. I guess I’m ready for the holidays. I love Christmas time, and so did my mom. I always felt closest to her around the holidays decorating together, making cookies, shopping. I think that’s why I’m ready for them to be here now.
Speaking of mom, after 15 weeks of waiting, the plaque was finally up on her niche, only it wasn’t the niche I picked. It was the one next to it. I went on Monday and got everything straightened out. The wrong number niche was on the paperwork, but they’re fixing it. We’re going to place her on the 18th. Everything is supposed to be fixed by then.
My Uncle James, the one we went to visit in September, passed away from lung cancer at the end of October. His memorial was this past Saturday. Zach and I went, even though my dad didn’t want to. I knew he was going to undergo more chemo because some cancer had shown in his lymph nodes, but apparently from the time they found it to the time chemo was scheduled, it spread rapidly. He spent the last of his life in the hospital. I”m very sad to have lost him. There’s a lot of other crap going on with the family that is positively disastrous, but I’m not going into that right now.
Maybe I will attempt the rest of NaBloPoMo. We’ll have to see if I can come up with things to post.
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I think my bad habits are really catching up to me now. I feel really lousy and I’ve been having trouble sleeping this week. I wish there was a way I could just drain the bad stuff out of my system. I’ve had too much caffeine, sugar, beer, heavy unhealthy food. My allergies are driving me nuts. When I stand or walk my lower back starts to hurt in as little as five minutes.
I think there needs to be a major adjustment in my food and activity level. I need to go to the grocery and get fresh fruit and veggies. I need to cook healthy meals at home instead of going out so much. I should give up the soda. I need to go to the gym more often. I also need to go to the doctor for blood work and to have my back fixed. I need, I should.
Things have been fairly quiet for the last couple of days. The weather has been a little warm for my liking but that’s ok since I mostly stay inside. There’s so much work that needs to be done in the yard, I need to clean the house. Nothing good or interesting. My life is boring. So all’s the same really.
How do you motivate yourself to exercise and eat right? It seems like it should be so simple to me, especially since I watched my mothers health deteriorate from bad habits. Help?
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My dad had a CT scan last Friday and a doctors appointment regarding that scan today. We found out he is cancer free. This was not expected. The odds were against him going into radiation. They thought it would help, but not heal completely. The doctor called it nothing short of a miracle. My dad came home and celebrated with a cigarette.
I’m relieved, but I’m not as happy as I should be. Honestly, I’d rather have my mom back than have my dad cancer free. I know its not an option, obviously, but it would be my choice if I had one. I’m not that close with my dad. Sometimes I feel like he doesn’t even like me that much. I was close to my mom. My dad and I haven’t been close since I was under the age of three. He went away to Germany and came back when I was seven. Suddenly I was a pariah. He thought it was “weird” to hug me or tell me he loved me. I only had that from my mom.
I guess this brings out such a spectrum of emotions because it was so unexpected. I fully expected to walk in and here that it helped, but the cancer was still there. That’s what we were set up to believe. Not that its a downer that the cancer is gone, but its such a shock. Not that it will stay away considering his current habits, but its more of a chance than they expected him to have. I don’t know what to do with the news, especially since he told me he only expected to live another year or two.
I feel like a horrible person for not celebrating this amazing thing. I guess life just has be down in the dumps, not expecting anything good to ever happen, so when it does, I don’t know how to react. Why could my dad be saved but my mom had to die? It doesn’t seem fair.
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I’ve been neglectful again. I should have posted over a week ago but I just didn’t. I’m always worried about running out of words to make a decent blog.
The last Sunday in September, Zach and I went out to my Uncle James’s house in Longwood. It was a birthday party for him. I haven’t seen him in quite a few years. My Aunts Sue, Judy, and Faye were all there, as were my cousins Beth and Brian, James’s kids. I haven’t seen Beth for over 10 years, and hadn’t seen Brian since I was a child. Zach got to meet some of his second cousins, all girls. The group of them didn’t seem to have much to talk about. We had a nice lunch and caught up a bit with everybody. James is in rigging so he’s built this deck that sits about 30 or 40 feet up.
I took this from up there, looking over his land and the springs that run through it. You have to take a wobbly bridge to get up there. Once you’re up there, you find another ladder that goes up to another deck about ten feet higher. It feels like a treehouse.
It was nice to go out there and see everybody. Nice to just go out and be among people. There’s no family on my mom’s side, so its when my dad’s side gets together that I see anybody. Its silly, Uncle James lives like 20 minutes away but we’ll go years between seeing each other.
I’m slowly getting ready for Halloween. October 1st brought us the first bit of fall weather of the season, which was a nice way to usher in the month. I haven’t decided if I’m going to put up my Halloween tree, or just not mess with it this year. I just don’t feel as excited. My mom liked Halloween, but not as much as Christmas. I’ve always loved Halloween. Not sure what’s gotten into me this year.
Hope you lovelies are having a good month so far!
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